I feel Like Such an F'n Loser

I Feel Like Such an F'n Loser

I think it's time we end now
I just can't take much more
I mustn't throw a tantrum ~ throwing a fit ~ while on the floor

I tell you ~ I don't like this
Most times I get my way
You're quite a different story ~ I know you've heard me say

I ask myself why bother
to want you in my life?
For one day you'll get married ~ and I won't be your wife

Why want what I can't have
And shop when I can't buy
Especially when the thing I want ~ is someone else's guy

For me, you were distraction
From a husband not so kind
But now what I've encountered ~ can make a man go blind!

If there were things I wished for
You'd be atop the list
So quickly how it happened ~ on the day that we first kissed

It's all F'd up this feeling
It feels so wrong but right
Still one day it will happen ~ us together for one night

Be strong and get along now
I must do more than try
If I told you I don't love you ~ please know it was a lie!

My pride has suffered greatly
This thing I planned for fun
Has left me sad and crying ~ In a game I haven't won!

To win is in my nature
I really hate to lose
When it comes to who you wanted ~ it's me you didn't choose!

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