Feel it from within

I can feel it from within,
as I look at the world surrounding me,
at the evil that lurks around every corner,
waiting for its unsuspecting victims.

I can feel it from within,
as I gaze into the mirror,
at a girl no longer happy,
whose eyes mask hidden sadness,
now filled with tears.

I can feel it from within,
as I bite down on my hand,
hoping to stop the tears from silently falling,
distracting myself with the throbbing pain.

I can feel it from within,
as I look to the stars at night,
hoping to find an answer,
but instead finding only darkness.

I can feel it from within,
as I hear the voices calling,
the screaming inside my head wont stop,
so I lay awake till morning.

But still my skin is flawless,
no permanent marks to see,
for all my scars are deep within,
hidden for only me.

So I'll keep on saying that I'm fine,
and that I'll persevere,
I'll keep on lieing to my mum,
and pretending that I care.

For that is what you want isn't it?
A soldier through and through,
but I'm not a soldier in that sense,
if only you knew what I've been through.

I lost myself awhile back,
I'm not sure where I went,
all I know is I'm not coming back,
so for now i've given up fighting for that.

So I can feel it from within,
the never ending void,
the sadness which consumes me,
the longing for something more,
something I can hold on to so that I wont fall over the edge.

But although I've given up,
I still wait for an answer,
because I can feel it from within.