Nothingness

The tides are quiet now
My sea is calm
No wind, no waves,
no rage, no qualm
I think as still
as I am now
All my feelings
must have died out
My paper sheet
blank and bare
For there is nothing
to write down here
I no longer hurt
I no longer care
I no longer feel
hope nor despair
There is only this space
Of not-a-thing
There is only vacancy
Where there used to be something
I don't remember
pushed hard to forget
all images I ever had
The framed pictures of smiles
Of people I used to love
The broken paintings of feelings
I didn't want to know of
All locked away
And now...
Everything is nothingness
Came from loneliness to emptiness
From ashes to ashes
From life to death
thinking maybe now
it's time for my last breath...