Behind her

Behind her tears there is anger
Behind a brave face there are lies
Behind her smile there is sorrow
Behind her lip gloss there is fear

Never seems to be accepted
She smokes and drinks
Thinking all her worries will go away
They never do

She feels as if 'loser' has been tattooed all over her
She knows they all talk about her
She feels there eyes piercing vicious holes through her body
A scar she never can get rid of

It breaks her soul to know what lies ahead
Sometimes she wishes she would just drop dead
She wonders to herself what will they gain
To see her go through all this pain

Alone, scared afraid
Look what we have made
A sad heart with only one thing
To have a happy face

Cutting herself each night
She is not ready to fight
She wishes could all go away
She dreads fight another day

Always wondering about her weight
She never seems touch her plate
Am I to fat?
My breasts are too small
Why can't I be just the right tall?

All she wants is to be loved
Is that too much to ask for?
She gets taunted and beaten by her stepfather
She gets taunted and beaten by her classmates
An outcast to society

Finally she wants to give up
Finally she is tired of all the abuse
Finally she has had enough
Finally she has given up

She walks the creaky staircase
Tears flooding her eyes
She goes to her mother's cabinet
She pulls out her mother's sleeping drugs

A flash of thoughts rush to her head
She remembers the days of mum's sweet singing
She remembers how she use be love
She remembers life before dad died
She remembers life before mum lied

She swallows the drug that's it she can never come back
Another life abused
Another life wasted
Another torn heart
Another life pasted