I woke up this morning with that dreadful cloudiness in my head,
This bad depression I have makes it hard for me to get out of bed.
I constantly wonder why out of all these people i'm the one to go through the tourtured life i'd been put through all these long years,
It has messed me up so bad that when I have these flash backs of my past I break down in tears.
I have tried so many different things to get rid of the pain that alot of people have caused me,
Even the medication I take makes me feel empty inside and like i'm a zombie.
The doctors tell me that i'll get over it but after everything I went through it's impossible for me to believe,
Because after all the lies family have told me in my life i'm afraid that i'm constantly being decieved.
All I ever wanted from my family was for them to give me the love and care they never bothered to show me,
But as much as I want it i'll never stoop low for it after everything i'd gone through and seen.
