Abandoned

My eyes are open,
And i still cant see,
Why you treat me this way,
Or ever let me just be.

You push and trip me,
And shove me down the stairs,
Then you laugh at my tears,
Who even cares?

My friends try to help me up,
But i push them away,
I take my anger out on them,
And ask, "Why do you even stay?"

They dont say anything,
As if their mouths are sewn shut,
I silently walk away,
And hear a faint, "But..."

I keep walking down my own path,
Hoping to find someone like me,
But i dont see any sign of life,
And i begin to see.

I just pushed all my friends away,
They probably moved on already,
I start to get dizzy,
And try to stay steady.

I am so stupid,
What have i done?,
They will never forgive me,
So i grab the gun.