Celebrating my loneliness

I'm smoking my sorrow
I'm drinking my pain
I'm getting high right now
And there's nothing to lose or gain
It seems like everything is fake
And loneliness is my faithful friend
There's nothing to leave or take
And no one cares enough to give me his hand
Darkness is my safe place
The moon is my secrets keeper
The stars light shine on my face
And it's my magical mirror
My world is empty and cold
I'm freezing right now
All I want is someone to hold
But I'm alone again somehow
The sound of winds talks to me
And tell me secrets about this life
I cry while I'm listening
And wonder if I'm dead or alive
Freedom is all I ever wanted
But instead I'm caged
I've spent my whole life grounded
And I really need to be saved
Would anyone save me before it's too late
Or no one will care if I'm gone!
I wonder where is my soulmate
And why he left me here all alone
I'm about to give up
I'm about to walk away
But my soulmate will show up
And he's going to need me someday