I can't seem to understand just why u always do this to me.
It's like a never ending story of pain and lies.
Lies that u know I always found the truth in.
But yet u still do it.
Am I not good enough? I wonder.
I cry, think hurt, and dream.
I image u so different. So changed so faithful and loving.
And then I wake up, and realize a dream is just
a dream something I strive for but don't mean
I will get.
What I want is what I need.
I want him, the man I'm deeply in love with
The man that's always been there for me in all
the ways other than a husband. A friend.
He always listens, loves and cares no matter what.
But what I need is a husband not a friend. A man to hold
to look into my eyes and know that no one will ever break us.
I just don't know how much more I can take.
I just don't think I'm strong enough.
I feel so hurt and sad inside. So lost and so alone.
I have nothing. I am nothing. I want more.
I want to feel beautiful again, loved again, cherished again.
I want to be everything. I want him to see me as everything.
The only one for him, the one he can't live without. The one he wants to fall asleep with and wake up with every day. I want to be that girl. He's one and only.
