Slumber

Why must I feel this agony?
Haven't I suffered enough?
Silently, I long to let go.
Let go for eternity.

I've never been the self hurt kind,
Isn't it funny what can change?
If pushed far enough,
Far enough over the edge.

I can't keep up anymore or hold my head high.
Barely above water and I wonder.

Torn at the seams, I'm tired and painfully sorrow eyed.
My soul badly shredded to pieces.
Where do I go from here?

Reality is harsh,
I can barely breathe.
Like a hammer I feel heavy, ready to drop.

And if I fall and hit the bottom,
Which part of me will die first?
Because I no longer wish to be.

Oh, please, just take my breath away..

09/20/12