Forever (submitting for five month)

I'm afraid, I'm afraid nothing will work out. Writing has always been my dream but what if I fail, what then? Then I'll be nothing and there's no plan B, writing is who I am, writing is me.

Sometimes I feel like I have it all figured out, all the plans sorted through. I'm going to become a writer and make a difference, be my own.

I am going to marry Skyler Cole Barrett and we are going to have a big family of twelve kids (if I can talk him into it), that's a huge wish of mine.

For us to get married in a church and all our family and friends to be there. Me dressed in white and you in black. To be Skyler's wife and hear him say it every morning and him be my husband whom I give all my love to. Name our sons Reid, Spencer, Michael, Gabrielle Wilson, and Skyler and so on. Our daughters Natalie Hope Faith Barrett, Violet Love Mary Barrett, Daniella Angel Terry Barrett, Lori Joy Valerie Barrett, Christine Tyler Elizabeth Barrett and so on. (none official decided)

We'll live in the country and have a house with a window we can crawl through onto the roof and Skyler and I can lay there together and can stare up at the stars, all night long, the wind blowing on us as we underneath lay with love in our hearts and talk all night long until we fall asleep laying in each other's arms. We can have a house with a porch we can sit at waiting to hug the other when they come home from work, and kissing off at in the morning. A house with window sits and a trap door out from the basement to the outside in case of a fire so there can be a bedroom down there.

I dream of Skyler and I making a life together, saying I do so we can be together forever, listening to each other and feeling the baby move inside of me. I know he will be a great Father and my children could never be luckier, the kids that are made with our love for each other and the Grace of God!

He is my prince charming, my knight in shining armour and I could never love another like I love him. And one of the best days of my life will be beyond golden such as priceless when Skyler arrives on that plane to be with me! To Skyler I will give my love 'til the day I pass on from this world, I fear I'll push him away and mess this up but I want him to know I don't want him to change at all and I love him!!!