Drowning
drowning in myself
in my own feelings
feelings of guilt
guilt and abandonment
feelings of shame
worthlessness, embarassment, inadequacy....
feelings that are too much
too much for me to handle
drowning
drowning in the water
that i use to try and cleanse myself
to try and rid myself of the dirt
dirt that he put inside me
without my permission
or my consent
drowning
drowning in my anger
in this thick, inexplicable anger!!
what would i give to be wearing a life jacket right now?
to have someone toss me a flotation device?
anything- i think
everything- i know
help!
help me!
i am drowning!
someone, save me!
someone, please, come get me out!!
