FIRST CHRISTMAS WITHOUT U

THIS EVENING I FELT BLUE,LOST AND LONELY TO,I OPENED THE BOX OFF DECORATIONS, N IT HIT ME THIS YEAR ITS WITHOUT U,MY HEART AGAIN BEGAN TO ACHE , I START TO BUILD UP INSIDE BUT I HELD MY BREATH RELEASED N MANAGED NOT TO CRY....EACH AND EVERYDAY I DIE A LITTLE MORE INSIDE,AT YOUR FUNERAL I HAD TO SAY GOODBYE BUT I HELD SO TIGHTLY TO YOUR COFFIN I DID NT WANT TO EXCEPT THAT ANOTHER ONE OF MY ANGELS HAD TO DIE. EVERY NEW DAY NAN NA I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH THAT IF I BEGAN TO CRY WOULD I EVER STOP? THE HURT INSIDE AND ANGER THAT RUNS THREW MY SPINE ...I DO GET YOU AV BEEN REUNITED WITH MUM N GRANDAD N ALL THOSE TH ATS SADLY DIED TO R.I.P TO ALL OFF U...BUT TO EXCEPT THAT THIS IS THE FIRST CHRISTMAS WITHOUT U BREAKS MY HEART INTO 2...I FEEL THO THAT U WILL BE CLOSE CUZ U LOVED CHRISTMAS JUST LIKE I DO...I WILL LIGHT A CANDLE IN MEMORY OF U R.I.P MERRY CHRISTMAS NAN NA,I LOVE YOU. N PLZ PLZ REM' ILL NEVER GO A DAY WITHOUT U IN MY HEART AND IN THOUGHTS , I WILL LIVE ON FOR U HAS ILL BE YOUR LEGACY XXX-XX