Healing

Watch my tears all you want
for I don't care anymore,
my soul has been shattered
to a point of far beyond saving.
^
Intresting starting stanza it really does amaze me how you started such a sad poem with a small definance tone yet still sad. I love the emotions but I also love the imagery I know you no longer are sad for a fun fact so this is just beautiful to me daughter love you be strong.

I know you loved me,
at least you said you did,
but now there is no feeling,
no regret, no pain, just numbness.
^
Intresting words. I'll give you advise when they say "I loved you once" take it as a compliment since you have moved on to someone better and they have stopped being the torn that was causing you to bleed emotionally and physically. Don't let the past haunt you into your future Allie.

If you care at all,
which I doubt you do,
you shouldn't have left me
standing out here in the cold.
^
Now you show that you are aware of how that person feels and yes it sucks to be left behind espeically in the cold but hear me out if they did that it just shows their true character and it's a good thing that they left you alone baby doll. Be strong and never lose faith in God!

I love you mom,
can't you see that?
But its time for me
to slowly pick up the pieces.
^
Ouch I can't say anything here since it's too personal. Only that your actual mother isn't a mother in truth since a mother has to be kind, gentle, LOVING, and supporting of her child not to mention she has to THERE for you.

To begin to mend this
broken heart filled with serrated edges
that slice through my palms
with each new memory released.
^
Be strong like you wrote kitten you know that broken pieces can become the most beautiful windows if burned and mended right? Or is it just my imagination? O well be strong!

But one day I will be whole,
one day I will stand strong.
One day I will love,
and be loved.
^
I love this stanza because it shows that you have a goal in mind and I know you already have reached that mark my dear friend and dear daughter!

Well, to start moving forward,
I must do this, although it pains
me in great depths to do so.
I must go, mom, I'm sorry.

Maybe I will return,
a better and stronger person
but I need to do this
to move on from the past.

Finally, years have passed,
I am healed.
I feel no more pain.
The dreams no longer haunt.

Should I risk it?
Risk going back to that place.
Maybe not, for it hurts
just to think about it.

Finally, I'm happy.
The dark thoughts
that have clouded my
mind, are gone.
^
Looovee how you ended it the last half my dear daughter I knew you could make it! And it shows from the beginning you were fractured inside and now you can stand on your own and the bad things that have happend are in the past don't worry people will love you either way hun always be happy, be yourself, and be loved by who you are!

-Mori

Within every scar, healing dwells. There's always one out there, who cares..