Numb

I just want to feel something again.

So I'll cut my skin to feel the pain,
I'll distance myself from my friends to feel the loneliness,
I'll scream until my voice is raw to feel the relief.

I'll stand in the middle of the road to feel the sense of danger,
I'll start fights with everyone to feel the hatred and anger,
I'll burn my skin to practice for hell, to feel the pain.

I'll drink it all up to feel the happiness again, even if it's
drunken,
I'll run and run and run to feel the adrenaline,
I'll jump from the roof to feel alive.

I'll pop the pills to feel important,
I'll throw things at the wall to feel the destruction
and reality.

I can't cry at all, I can't feel anymore,
I don't feel-
I don't exist, right?

I just want to feel

something,

anything.