Dont judge me

My mother met this guy......I remember I was five,
She opened the door....And this man just walked inside....
I couldn't ever sleep,
Cuz I heard them two all night....
I would walk into her room....Just to make sure she's alright....
He only came for sex,
And he came right in one night....
My mother wasn't home....And he turned off all the lights.....
I could tell that he was drunk,
I could tell it in his stride....
He slammed me to the bed....You can read between the lines....
Back then.......I didn't drink.......And I don't even drink it now,
I don't even smoke.....Even if my friends around....
People say that I'm a joke,
Cuz I don't fit in with their crowd,
They try to bring me down.....But I look up to the clouds.....
Jesus wears the crown,
So I stay away from sinnin,
I be all up in the word.....Just to prove that I'm committed....
Men claim that they forgiven, But they knew in the beginnin,
They knew that they was sinnin......When they came inside these women...
I can say I'm different.......Cuz I have different needs,
I never met my father....But I knew that he smoked weed....
While your wife is up in labor....And she's giving birth to me,
I guess that weed got you high...Cuz you flew right over me.....
I wasn't that important,
Guess I was never lucky,
God doesn't like pretty........And God doesn't like ugly.....
I'm so rich in the spirit.......Even though I don't have nothing,
Open up my book......Read my story.........Before You judge me.......