Bad Day

Everyday with me is bad
Can't stay with me without being sad
"I'm having a bad day"
My stomach sunk to the floor
I don't want to live anymore
This feeling keeps sinking down right down to my very core
It makes me feel worse than horrible
It makes me more than sick
It seem to make me feel violently ill
Its a feeling that i cant kill
The feeling that makes me loose my will
Its a sickness that you cant cure with a pill
When it covers over me my heart stays still
Its my fault because i made the mistake
But please forgive me
Do it for my sake
Bottles up all my emotions so none can get out
Do my best not to cry for help
Do my best not to scream and shout
Just keep on adding on to all the stress
Ill try not to not to have a breakdown
I'm so confused there is no water around me
But yet i feel like I'm about to drown
I'm empty inside, I have an important piece missing
All i want is for my soul to be whole
But life is cruel and ironic
So instead i have a hole in my soul
I have absolutely no idea how to fill it
I dug for answers and never looked up
Now I'm stuck in a pit