Uncontrollable

Pain all around me
and the darkness closes in.
I whisper, please not now
I've been so good for so long.

But that doesn't matter,
the disease takes over my body
as I start to shake and twitch
moaning as my head bumps the floor.

Tick tock, tick tock,
let the clock go by
counting the minutes between
this one and the next.

Again and again I start to shake
not able to stop, yet
praying to come back to
this horrible reality.

Slowly consciousness comes
rushing back through my
gaping headache,
yet I cannot speak.

Nothing is making sense,
I have no clue who I am,
where I am,
or what has happened.

Suddenly everything makes
no sense and I cannot
control the anxiety attacks after
but I can't exactly remember why.

After a while things start
to come back to me now.
I begin to remember my name,
or maybe the people around me.

Yet something always remains
away from my mind, never
to be remembered again,
and this is the hardest part.

This is just another day,
another trip to the hospital
for the same thing.
Just another day for an epileptic.