Afraid

I am afraid
to fall
to rise
to slip
Back into my old ways....
My best friend a sharp blade
to jump
to sing
to dance
Shredding my skin
to run
to fly
to laugh
blood running down
my already stained skin
to scream
to cry
I am afraid
Of this again
A single fear
Of what I wish,
Sometimes,
I never,
Stopped .