Only if you knew

Only if you knew the truth
How I have had a tormented past
Absolutely no loving youth
My life is filled with dark clouds and black rain
The lost of love is truly my pain
I sit and have dark thoughts of not living
But is that the answer I see
Cause nothing else is given
Finding true happiness I thought I had at once
But because of my past I am giving up
Lies I never told but yet hide the truth to not be seen
I wanted true love to see me for me
But yet fake and phony I have seem to be portrayed
Yet if I was giving the chance to show I was me
I could have stayed...
Only if you knew what I have been through and hell I have seen
You would never have casted stones of death at me
I am sorry for all pain I have caused I truly meant eveything to its best
But now it's my turn to lay this all to rest..
Only if you knew.....
Love no longer means it's definition
Feelings to me show affection
Only if you seen things through my damn reflection
You would understand the truth in all its glory
But now there's nothing more to read cause I finally close the end of my story..