The emptiness of it all

Today i feel nothing,
The empty shell that I've become,
I do not laugh cry or anger,
Nor regret my life, I'm numb,
No Hunger in my stomach,
No pain inside my head,
No damage to my heart i feel,
No impending doom fear or dread,
Is this how normal folk feel?,
No remorse, rage or regret,
well i guess why I'm on the meds,
To try to help me to forget,
the constant over thinking,
the questioning everything i do,
or the fact I'm alone right now,
truth is i haven't got a clue,
so i'll sit here wondering,
If this means i'll ever care,
Because id fell quite content alone right now,
Without a loving heart for someone to tare.

Brett Wilson 23yrs Cornwall 25/7/14