The Story So Far..

I will get over you
I know I have to
The toxic love that we brew
The end of it was long over due
But before I let our love perish for good
I'd relive our last memories imbued
I was 19 when we met
It was love from the go get
We had no doubt it was meant to be
Our days together were an epitome of glee
I poured my heart and soul to you
Had a blissful vision of our future clear in view
My dream was to be your wife
had dream't u would take me away from my life of strife
Our talks morning and evening were merry and bright
Never did we miss saying to each to other Good Morning,Good Night
Those secret winks,Those seven stolen kiss
And just as quickly and high we flew
Discontent within our families grew
And before we had time to get it to subdue
Each one of them was through and through
Leaving us behind and handing us broken sticks
Mirror of our future shattered into a million piece
Somehow we both managed to move on
Started our life anew
I got married, And you found yourself a wife too
But years later you came out of the blue
And we got talking all night long
About years that passed and feelings long lost,exhumed
It was a roller coaster which went high and low
Some days I cried for the loss of you,
Someday I found comfort in our vulnerability too
Someday pride swept over me when you confessed you still regret not having me
which accompanied by pity for you for not finding a love
stirring enough to forget like I had found for me
There was anger on the fact that we didn't fight harder when we could have
Now it too late for us to have to be anything else other than what we are
Perfect strangers with hidden scars like a map to our pieced together fragile hearts
Your sweet words spew content alongside disgust
when I unwittingly drank your dark potion of lust
It changed the very core of me
The depravity slowly eroded me
And to see you unmoved
Made me question the very likes of you
If you don't value what you have now, Why would you value me
Had it been the same thing if I had stood where now stands She
As someone who values fidelity,
who believes in giving all and never asking a fee
I already have someone who values me for me
And my wavering loyalty doesn't settle well within me
Why should I care for a candle when I have the Sun
A Sun which will never make me burn
I will and must let go
Even though what we had was special
It was a temporary glow
Doomed to burn out and am glad I could foresee
And save myself from the pain and darkness from which long ago I was freed
I wish and hope to never cross paths again with you
It may seem harsh but there is no genial way through
I may seem selfish and maybe I am
After all its every man for himself
when it will be asked to account for his sins
for what we did and for everything we hid within
You may think about me what you see fit
I've made a decision and a choice
And I will be sticking to it.