Not The Life I Wanted

This is not my life
Not how I pictured it
so far from his grave
Isn't how I wanted it.
I feel like I'm lost..
Lost at sea
trying to think of the day,
He first held me
I look around me
night and day
Thinking to myself...
Thinking of that day
I look up at the stars
knowing hes looking over me,
wishing hr was still here...
here holding me
Father daughter days
is how I wanted it to be
walking and talking
even sitting on a beach