Hurting Eternal..

As I pull the trigger, and watch the blood flow
I feel all the sadness and pain leave, and my happiness grow.
So much pain, I had to hide.
So many nights, in secret, I cried.
All this pain, was just to much for me to bear.
I did this for all the people that just didn't care.
They came, they pointed, and they all started to snicker
and I'm upset with myself, I didn't shoot myself quicker.
I don't know how peopole can stroll on with a smile.
When I'm so down,depressed, and when I'm happy..it only lasts awhile.
I did this all over love, and and pain..
I couldn't handle it, I was going insane.
So as I lay here on the floor..
I just wanted to say..the pain isn't hurting me anymore.
I'm glad that I don't have to suffer much longer
Because my toll of death is getting stronger..
Something I can't fight, the pain is so great, I'm glad I'm going to die..
and I'll never look back, and ask myself why.
Because I love that I'm dead, I love that I'm not in pain...
I'm glad that I'm not totally insane.
I draw my last breath, as I lay here on the floor...
The pain doesn't hurt me, anymore.