A Daughter's Pain Caused By Her Mother

The worst pain a daughter can ever feel in life is never getting nor ever receiving your own mother's love and acceptance. Always having to feel like, since you were small, that she was ashamed to say that you were her child. Like you were just a mistake that she had chosen. As the year's had passed by she ended up being your friend instead of being your mother. As like what friends do they end up getting jealous. Who could ever imagine a mother being jealous of her own child. Jealous at the fact that her daughter got the love and attention that she was never able to get from her own mother when she was a child but instead got left on a porch to be raised by her grandma instead. They say with jealousy comes hate. This i believe is to be true for deep down inside i feel my mother has hate towards me. Can you picture yourself having to feel this pain since you were small? Never doing anything that would have Gaven her the right to make you feel this way. I'm not saying that Ive been perfect as a mother myself cause i know I'm not but that's the difference between you and i. I can say were I'm in the wrong as to where you cant. Blinded of yourself. You try and put me down as a mother pretending like your mother of the year. If that was the case your daughter wouldn't have those kind of feelings towards you. Maybe she would have actually became somebody while loving life instead of the person that she became to be. Hating life but most importantly hating herself having to fight these suicidal thoughts daily