I feel null too.

Basically its that empty feeling which stirs a lot of other emotions because there are no words to put a finger on to say what it is...like an abyss where a range of emotions just clogs you...like in limbo.

Poetry wise-I like the descriptions you have penned combining clothes, things and moments which actually puts the reader into your world and make the reader feel what you feel...nicely penned dear, take care.