Killing me slowly

I dont know if this is reality or a dream
Deja vu possibly
You strapped me to table with a knife in your hand
My screams and cries for help masked by that evil laugh.
Drowing in the messed up world that I built.
But you caught me didnt you?
Im an embarrassment right?
I can feel that first slice and its never enough.
Work your way to my heart and take it out.
How the hell an I still alive and breathing?
I should have taken my last breath.
Maybe I was meant to be heartless and didnt even know.
Now theres a drill in my head, so youre taking my brain.
But what you dont know is its long gone.
Packed up and moved out without a goodbye.
You want my soul now?
Well guess what?
My pain devoured that
So its like I dont even exist.
No heart, no brain, no soul
What am I but a walking corpse
Doomed to see the end of days.
Knife to my throat and what remains bleeds out
There goes all of my hope.....