The death of my friend

Again I'm feeling like to give up,
Give up to this life and get lost,
A paradise as a option will also not cost,

Then if someone will ask me the reason,
Simply, I will described them all that happened in that season.,

You called me the last night, I remembered,
I told you not to do anything stupid, you crumbled,

I waited for the moon just to go away for the sun,
And we will meet and listen to all that happened one,

But it's hard, very hard that your call was the last meeting,
I made you understand but you idiot did a cheating,

Your goodbye note is here with me,
I'm just every day and night crying and weeping,

I cannot think to forgive you,
You are the biggest cheater, only you,

I remembered our old days, and cry,
Sit besides , silently think of it all alone, nowhere dry,

I'm biggest fool to get attached with you so much,
If you have told me that one day you will leave me as such,

The pain of separation I realized now,
I wish I could get you back, but how???

Tell me, what was my fault,
You as a friend I got, should get hault,

Hey, have a look on me, listen my cry,
Will these eyes will ever be dry,

You are resting in peace ,
But I'm resting in peices,

I'm regretting that why I had leaved you alone that night,
But I was not having any option, believe me, I fight

Every night, I went upstairs and
With the hurted eyes, stare the stars,
Talks to all of them,
About everything that happened with me,
Maybe one of them will deliver it to she,

The hope that we will meet
Remained a hope,

The cry that you will do nothing,
Remained a cry,

The promise that you will be with me,
Remained a promise

The dream that we will get together old,
Remained a dream,

The wish, that we will never leave each other
Remained a wish,

Now, I cannot think to forgive you,
The pain you had given, is due,

In my dreams an angel comes, an sit at my shoulder,
She gives me hope that I will get a good beholder,

But that angel talks are useless,
really useless,
You were the best beholder my friend
You are the best beholder,
You will be the best beholder,
No matter if you are not alive,

Daily I meet you when the sunshine falls on my cheeks,
I'm angry with you, but to see your soul happy,
I smile looking at the highest peak.