Alone

They say it's not my fault.
I fought it.
I said no.
I said stop.
Don't.
Please.
No.
I don't want this.
I don't like that.
We're friends.
Just friends.

Please.
Please.

Don't.

I put on weight since then.
I stopped with the make up since then.
I wore more sweats.
I didn't make new friends.
Left old ones.

Still. . .
2 years later someone else forced themselves on me.

Again.

I said no.
I pushed them away.
I ran.

Is this still not my fault?
If it's happened again what am I doing?

It has to be me right?
I did this, right?

Did I really ask for it?
If I did and didn't want it anymore is it still my fault?

I strive to look so unappealing and undesirable. I stay away from certain crowds. I hide. So why do I keep getting targeted?

What am I doing wrong?
Is it something I said?

I just want to know so I'll stop.
I'll behave. Do as you say.

Please don't touch me.
Please not like that.
I don't want it.
I don't want you.
I just want to be alone.

Please can I be alone?

Please..I beg you.
Just leave me alone.