Yes, I did this to myself

Yes I did this to myself
I opened my mouth in a time that I shouldn't
But I did not teach myself that hatred
Yes I did this to myself
I didnt finish what I need to be done in time
But I did not tear myself down to the point of no motivation
Yes I did this to myself
I chose not to eat
But I am not the one who told myself I was fat
Yes I did this to myself
I put the knife to my skin
But I did not put the thought in my head
Yes I did this to myself
I put the alcohol to my lips and the needles in my veins
But I did not make it so painful to live in my reality that I had to find another.
Yes I did this to myself.
I struggle daily in life making too little to get by
But i am not the one who convinced myself I was too stupid to go to college
and i am not the one who convinced myself I was worthless
I am not the one who taught myself to lash out instead of controlling the situation
And i am not the one who decided that other things were more important.
Yes I did this to myself
I pulled the trigger
But I did not put the gun in my hand.
But yes. I did this to myself.
And yes. That, I understand.