This is an incredibly sad write, but like Brenda said, very raw...and full of so much emotion. My heart aches for you. It doesn't seem like it ever gets any easier, but we do get stronger. I truly wish you much love and healing!
Phil what an amazing piece raw and honest. As a previous recovered sufferer I can honestly say admission to yourself is the first step. Well done it does get better with time sending you lots of hugs xx