I Dont Know

My thoughts
up and down
side to side
in every which direction
zooming around to fast
for me to pull them
and examine them

should I just stay here
And leave everything
and everyone behind
and in my past?

should I cling to them
for dear life
and pray I get to them soon.

should I just run away
from this place
and start over completely new?

a new me
that no one knows
make a new life?

OR........

Should I take this knife
and plunge it into my
blackening heart
and crush my soul?

I just dont know
anything anymore