My Greatest Desire

I have many desires
things I want for me
Things I want for others
Although there are too many to account for
I do have a greatest desire
Unlike some others my desire cannot be fulfilled
She is gone and has remained unattainable
I prayed and prayed and prayed
My heart has still remained in one place

Although she's gone I still feel her inside
It's not my heart she desires she has moved aside
To someone I know's not fit for her
She might forget my existence but my heart...

I know it's not right but she is my means
my truth
desire
I wish for my heart to beat for her ; if it shall beat at all
I shouldn't think like this again but she is my lost desire
My heart still beats and she is still distant
She is my reason
my love
my rate at which I live.

I remember holding her in my arms the last time
I had no fears
as if she were already mine forever
Some say that I'm to young to know what love is
It may be that I don't know where I will be
but I sure do know where I was
I was in a better place
I used to brag because I had life set
Now I'm in the dumps I was high now I'm low
I've gone past the unseen ; to hell and back
This is harder than meeting Lucifer face to face
He's my worst enemy who used to be my greatest friend

Although she's gone I still feel her inside
It's not my heart she desires she has moved aside
To someone I know's not fit for her
She might forget my existence but my heart...
She is gone...
She is inside...
I am empty
PLEASE GOD HELP ME!