For Real

I've done things I thought I couldn't do,
I've tried to hide every trace of this pain from you,
I've moved on but I know I can't forget you,
Still i'm struggling and I feel lost without you,

I'm missing you so badly than before,
But both of us know what's the real score,
I'm so messed up I don't know what to do,
I wish you were here so I could tell you,

But you're far away from me,
Far like my fantasies, Away like my dreams and
gone like my fears,
I'm trying to hold on to what I was yesterday,
I'm hoping you're happy and I pray you're okay,
I miss you but I know you can't stay,

I'm just here, trying to fake things when i know they're FOR REAL!