Right direction

Sometimes I miss you enough to where it’s controllable;
where I can still feel the emotions rolling
around in my chest and overlapping one another the way cigarette
smoke does when it collides with the smoke
from another persons cigarette-
if you’re close enough.
I can still go about my day and if I need
to;
Ignore the urges to text you and tell
you how much I miss you because I can only say it so many times without over doing it while
Other times it’s almost unbearable.
During those other times the emotions swirl and crash around in my chest,
Creating a storm that on most occasions even a text from you doesn’t comfort.
Those are my worst days-
Because there’s nothing I can do
about it and the only thing that would help would be to be in your arms
Where I’ve always felt at peace the most.
And sometimes it helps to look back on our memories
Or even for me to picture a future with
you in which I always see so clearly;
but still am unsure of whether or not we could make it happen.
And today babe-
Today is one of those days where
my chest aches and my heart cries out for you because every piece of my soul
needs your love and comfort;
Longs for your forehead kisses and the sound of your laughter.
And I have always had the choice to
want you;
Even though my heart kind of
already made the decision for me before my brain could even fathom it but I’m really glad it happened like that because sometimes my brain thinks too much so;
at least I know that this time my heart led me in the right direction.