Walking with a heavy heart,
Thanks to my mistakes in this life,
I would give anything to turn back
and make everything right.
So I’m living with perpetual regret,
As I find it so hard to forget,
Nothing is an easy fix,
So I find solace in my Sertraline and Codeine hits.
I’ve made it clear that a lonely life is the path for me,
Understanding that I like it better this way,
Falling in and out of love so true and deeply,
Addicted to the idea, yet honestly living in fear.
Distractions can only last so long,
Before the memories remind me of what went wrong,
This is what you want, seeing me crumble inside,
Somehow smiling on the outside,
Hiding true emotions behind a masked front,
Wanting to bring my walls down,
Turning many frowns into smiles,
Even if it’s just for a little while,
Still walking many miles figuring out
exactly where is my home.
Make me shake and shiver,
Promises broken as my lips quiver,
Presence disappears as I get thin,
Grey hair appears as I write on my skin,
Sinking into water in hopes of purifying my sins,
Sweetheart, everything will be all right,
I’m just tired of this inner fight,
If only just for tonight,
Can I wipe those tears away from your eyes?
Let us take flight and get high
from the passions that our souls ignite,
Seeing your body in all its beautiful bloom,
My gaze is all on you attentively and whole heartedly
and you can trust that nothing is going to leave this room.
Taking another hit of my Sertraline and Codeine,
So I can forget about being a loving and loveless fiend,
Dreaming in medicated hope that one day a nobody like me
will find myself a beautiful somebody.
