Joy in Sadness

What is there left to grasp?
Feeling helpless, heartbroken, and alone
How long does this have to last?
The life I’m living isn’t my own.

I don’t recognize who I am
Navigating life, faking a smile
This love feels like a scam
They say it’ll take awhile.

Often I wonder why I deserve this
My entire life as I know is changing now
I’m fading away into an empty abyss
I can’t help but to wonder how.

Ending the only real thing I had
This just doesn’t seem right
I’m exhausted from being so sad
My future looked so bright

He was my one true love—
Taking for granted my heart
Now I’m looking forward to rising above
Finding my joy and a fresh start.

I’ll be okay, this I know is true.
I’ll find my voice—
One step at a time, my heart will be made new
Looking back I’ll know this was never my choice.