Spiders are cursed with sweeping generalisation. Like, they are going to hurt me. They are ugly. "They don't belong". I like how you reflect on a depressed brain or a shy heart being like that spider: something to be avoided and certainly misunderstood.
Take care x
Wow. I feel bad for not having read this one before. I mean, wow. The sympathy you feel towards this weak spider stems from the fact that you are hurting and feeling weak too. I could've never described my depression like you beautifully did. Amazing write, as always.