'Misguided energy': an interruption to the norm, both the mental and physical to one's wellbeing. A disturbance(s) as if out of nowhere and disturbingly portrayed in this captivating poem. May you find fairer weather and a pleasant ocean to sail. Your writings are as profound as they are eminent in the province of poetry. Excellent!
Woah, the "pain only comes in waves" hit hard. And those last few lines. Heartbreaking. I don't think there is anything that can be as painful as the drowning feeling, a helplessness, a fog you can't just escape from.
Oh, one little thing: "Iv'e" should be "I've" in the last stanza.