I really took a leap with you
I jumped into your pool of gold
not seeing the rust that laid just beneath it
well I think I knew
but I wanted to swim anyway
soon enough you caught wind of me
but I didn't flinch I didn't care
even if it cost me a whole embarrassment
I opened up like a can of beans:
I oozed
but I wasn't consumed
I spoiled
and let you go
but I'm still thinking that you lied to me
I'm still wandering
maybe you would have eaten me
if I had stayed open long enough
so now I regret it
because maybe I will never touch you again
I wished that I'd have hugged you longer
squeezed you even
wished that I'd have planted my lips on your just once or twice or as many times as I would have awanted to
wished that I would have held your hand
laced our fingers
or touched your nose
or bite your ears after whispering sweet nothing
or cried in your chest
as you hugged me tight and wiped away my tears
or massaged my shoulders
wish I could tell you all this
but I have pride
you don't like me
you don't want to do those things with me
you wont randomly call me just because
you "wanted to hear my voice"
unless of course like my mind is telling me:
you lied to me
because someone broke your heart and you think I deserve the same
I should hate you
but I cant stop thinking about you
and I'm curious
and I feel like I am about to die
if you don't tell me right now
that you love me
