I hate her so much
I'm so sorry
She keeps making the same mistakes
relying on those who don't care
Still unable to gage their indifference
When do I get to change?
When do I get to see all the development
that I'm trying so hard to put in?
When do I become someone i love?
I keep looking in the mirror at her,
smiling through tears and pain...
pretending not to hurt.
She's so fake.
Then I think,
"Sweetie no-one deserves you"
I have to keep telling myself
"I'm fricking amazing"
or I might actually become depressed
and do nothing with these tormenting thoughts
I know these feelings are wrong
But how can I help it
Every step I've made so far
is in the wrong direction.
I mean, it doesn't matter,
"cause I'm fricking amazing"