*my inconvenience

For the first time
i found a friend who actually understands me
she never forbid me from feeling the way i feel
she was such a good friend
but my inconvenience stepped in
and her mother said it was my fault for her behavior
and maybe it is.
so i apologize...
I'm sorry my dad lost both his legs.
I'm sorry i never see my mom anymore because shes always with him.
I'm sorry my feelings have changed since the accident.
I'm sorry i need to talk to someone
now, more than ever.
and I'm sorry i even exist.
my inconvenience is evident everywhere i go.
maybe i should just kill myself now...
or would that be inconvenient for you too?