I love how you used "house" as a verb in the first line, and as always, I enjoy your rhymes. They never feel too forced or out of place, and they keep the poem flowing along. Even in three stanzas, I felt a lot with this. I interpreted "I will be earth" as a few things. Possibly synonymous with being buried, encased in dirt, meeting one's demise. Or trying to find stability and touch a foundation you trust - to not become lost in the inner workings of the brain that convince you shame is all you will carry, or that your nothing will grow from what you've been through. Great work!