The one I want is close to me
is close to someone else.
Won’t beg for attention
unless it’s given freely.
Won’t beg for you to see me.
Never been an inmate
won’t act like one now.
Everything you say,
I will never believe.
I believe in actions.
I believe in effort.
If you mess up,
you won’t get the same me.
I’ll just set myself free.
Because I’ve learned
You return
only to leave me broken.
Your words are a lure,
your absence a knife.
You never intended to stay,
never intended to choose me.
I was holding my breath,
Waiting for something
You never planned to give.
But I won’t beg for scraps
When I deserve a feast.
I won’t shrink myself
to fit inside your shadow.
I know my worth
and it isn’t found in chasing
Someone who runs from love.
I choose peace over chaos,
clarity over confusion,
Truth over pretty lies.
So I walk away,
not empty, but whole
free of the weight,
free of the waiting,
free of loving someone
Who doesn’t love me?
