All I want is death

Alcohol and wishing for death is my.life now
Was so close to jumping into the mersey today
I don't know why I didn't
Because all I'm getting is bullshit
All I'm getting is excuses and lies
You've been watching and showing as my hope dies
You've been getting involved and lost in lust
Ajd I've just been drowning
Yet some say this is just
Because I am just scum who causes fear
I'm just a.mouse.... as you said on that night
And you want a man.
Well you've got plenty now