ok Just hold up, wait. Shouldn't we all just love one another, instead of spewing all of this hate. The atmosphere that this does create. is one that completely seems to devastate. Aimed at everything that is good, this death ray is simply set to obliterate. Damages done are way more than what I did anticipate. As this darkness does seem to quickly invade, I feel as if there is no escape. So perhaps I hesitate, unable to differentiate between reality and the things I hallucinate.
In the shadows, that are just as still, as they are dark, lingers things that will rip you apart. I find that I am forever scarred, just as I know my name is eternally marred. The haunted images always just bombard, leaving me with nothing but memories that are charred. I am here even though I am met with disregard. The flames that light me up, just to see where I spark have become my hallmark. Sweetheart, I am unarmed, as I prepare to disembark. I keep praying for a headstart, right to my graveyard. Where out of my misery, this moment has been carved. There appears to be no way to outsmart, all these old habits seem to die hard. Meaning that for such things as redemption and salvation I am now starved.
It was out of the darkest part of the most sinister night that magically I was drawn to the light, a light that did shine extremely bright So bright it mimicked daylight. It came to me as such a surprise, one that truly did excite, the light it just seemed to shine right inside, my deepest recess where my demons reside. Causing white hot flames to suddenly ignite giving way to explosions that sounded like dynamite. That is when this heart of mine did crack open wide. The calm that this seemed to provide has left my insatiable appetite utterly and completely satisfied. Yet still something didn't feel like it was quite right, it was almost as if I was searching for what could be considered my Kryptonite. The very thing that once had me crucified. So as I wait for this feeling to subside, I push all my fears aside and attempt to believe everything will be alright.
The highest of all kings, God that is above wraps me completely in his everlasting love. He assures me that I have a purpose, that will lift me up higher than any buzz. Even without these drugs I face decisions that are tough.. Sometimes these desperate situations they crush. I can hear these demons speaking now in tongues. Allowing these evil things to enter in such a rush, that there seems to fall a certain kind of hush. Yet it's not until push turns to shove, That I see that the possibilities are limitless, As my heavenly Father promises that to him I am precious and that I am enough.
