Loneliness and heartache, Ive come to realize their the same thing.
These are both something no one wants to ever feel, but they come all to soon.
I strive to do whats right, and it feels like a kick in the ass.
I crave for love, it makes me say and do things I wouldn't normally do.
They say that loneliness comes to only the weary, but am I reaping what Ive sown
for all the wrongs I may have done in the past? I'll probably never no.
I take it day by day, hoping the next day will be better than the last.
Maybe the happiness comes tomorrow, but tomorrow never comes.
I put my heart into a dream, I think its a dream, its cloudy only because my
heart is tore in half, half is telling me that this is the right way to
go, but the other is telling me, I'm only fooling myself, Maybe happiness
is somewhere else that I'm not looking? Its been to long since Ive been happy.
I think its called tunnel vision, I'm only looking straight ahead
at what I no and hope could be, this is my goal, but am I setting my
standards to high at something that is actually out of my reach?
Am I looking at more loneliness and heartache? This I hope not.
I keep the poison out of my heart because I don't want to poison my mind.
I kick myself in the ass for not directing myself to a better way, when I no
that all this time I've known better, but still went against my better judgement.
Now what do I have? Nothing unless I call loneliness and heartache something,
but I wont give them any credit, I always have given credit where credit is due,
but not this time, I no it takes time and my time is up, "it has to be". They say its on
HIS
time, now I'm impatient, I'm uncomfortable, I'm depressed, all I want is to live a
simple life I don't ask for much. Is it took much to ask? To be happy an loved,
to feel wanted, to be a friend that you don't have to hide. I have to much life
left to waste what love I have to give, Its waiting to explode. My love is to
full, its has to come out. Sharing is a natural thing but if you let others control
where you put it, you will never be happy and get whats coming to you. We where put
here to be lovers of the world, and to be lovers to ourselves and others. Are we always
going to let others control our lives? Its up to us. I can continue to sit back and wait,
but I'm going to step up and take what I want. Ive always been a bold and straight forward
soul, never meaning any harm, the intent really has been there to hurt, and in the
outcome I still am lonely and heart broken. I lose sleep, things running threw my head
at all times, this isn't helping the craving that I have. I really know what I want, my
heart and soul is set on it. Now let it happen, lay back and lets go for the ride.
Getting rid of the loneliness and heartache. Its only natural
