Treating myself

I'm treating myself with savage cruelty,
God knows why,
I hate myself cuz I'm a sinner,
Ive become a hating liar...

I need to be cut,
in2 a million different pieces,
No doubt i deserve it,
I'm craving for jeers and teases,

I don't want anyone to have mercy on me,
Tut tut!Not the thing i want,
The feeling i need,
Is hatred and animosity...

I don't want to bear myself anymore,
I'm not worth it,
Tear me like a wasted page,
Throw me away and beat and hit...

Stab me with a razor,
I deserve that,
In fact i need that,
but my surroundings tell me the chance is fat...

I've become my own prey,
I want to finish me off,
I want to crack my head open..
and on me i want to laugh...

The thing that I haven't revealed,
Is the only truth,
I don't **want** people to hate me,
They already want to kill me apart......