I am dying,
unfortunately not fast enough,
it's time now that you know why,
always screaming at me,
telling me that I'm worthless,
now you have me believing it too.
You never give me the chance to speak,
apparently what I have to say doesn't matter.
You drover me brother away,
that will never be okay,
how could you drive your own child away like that?
and still do not wish to see him.
I can see why he left,
and it's all because of you.
You hate me,
don't worry,
there's no need to try to hide it,
I can see it clearly.
You screwed me up,
and forced me to mature faster,
which isn't always a good thing.
You never trusted that I could do things on my own,
well I found some help,
from people who go through the same stuff,
now, my thoughts are almost completely gone,
and surprise surprise,
no help from you.
I wouldn't expect you to solve the crap you caused,
if you had done that before,
maybe I would have had a normal childhood.
You may be reading this worried,
but do not fear,
for I have beat MY fears,
for the most part anyways.
And still,
amazingly,
I love you
