Consumes

Sadness consumes my body,
It never goes away.
I have no joys,
I am only left with sorrows.
I try to smile,
Pretend I'm OK.
But it hurts me even more.
It is another punch at myself,
looking at what I could have.
I wish all of my pain could be taken away,
But the only way I know of to take it all away is suicide.