My Feelings

I feel like I'm on the outside
looking in on everyone
while they enjoy themselves.
I feel trapped;
locked away from the happiness
and all the smiles.
I try and smile
but this frown is plastered on my face.
It is a permanent reminder of my loneliness
and the fact that i am unloved.
The feeling of the tears are my only comfort.
They are my only comfort because they have to be
without them I am alone.
I look around and see nothing.
No one.

I cant bare this feeling of nothing any longer.
I tell myself I have to change.
I have to be normal.
I try my best to forget all my problems
but it doesn't work.
I guess this was my destiny.
I was destined to be nothing.

*i wrote this during one of my appointments with my psychiatrist. he was asking me about how i feel and i don't like to talk about my feelings so i wrote a poem about it so ya.... please comment and vote. thanks*